I texted my mum:'so sad that there are so many things that tend to itnerfere my mood to study. I love studying. why are there obstacles all around" A reply from a supportive mother throiugh email. "Vin, to be a successful person is not only by being good in yr study. There are many more areas in life that can create a person to be successful. One of the ingredients is “happiness” So search for peace and happiness in life. Otherwise u will have frowned face everyday. Put on a cheerful look before u leave the house. Smile at everybody when u meet them. U will be surprise ppl will smile back at you. Vin, don’t say negative and unhappy words when you are awake. Don’t say hurtful words that can make you down. Why let external forces control yr mood? You got to put yrself in control then only you can be rational. Ma know it easy to say than done. But have you tried? How much effort you put to make yr life happy? Why let yr mood control yr emotional?? Alvin , hv you ever ask, why are u like that? Why others are not like that? CHANGE is the key word. We change our mood by occupying our time with positive things to do and think. Pls Alvin , u got to put in effort to make your life worthwhile. Otherwise life is meaningless. Vin, it not easy to be a human being. Look at yr dad. He help others and in return, others look up upon him. Even other races take up their hand to yr dad. I saw that yesterday. An Indian man in the education dept even told me how yr dad help others. And he said because of his good deeds, all dad children are doing good. Its not easy to get a child to says that he loves to study like what u told me. Ma very happy to hear it. But u got to find and create the other part of yr life that is ‘HAPPINESS.” You must search for it Alvin . It is not hard to find. Its your way of “perception” on others. Ma told you yesterday. Create new friends. Learn to love and trust friends. U shd show love then u will be showered with love too. U cannot put yrself in a cubicle. Open up the box and look outside. Vin, ma don’t ask much from you. If you cld open up yr heart, learn to trust ppl, ma wld be happy. Yes, the only way to change is to attend church. Go with Gerald. You will find peace after a few session. Give a try. Ma wish you good luck. questions: Where is my happiness? where can i obtain it from? What is peace? where is peacefull? H2O2 lecture hall? brookman library? computer pool? where else? state library? They are all in my way through.