Precomtemplation stage

So, here I am again, crapping some nonesense stuff and not studying. I met my counselor again this morning. Telling her about my feelings throughout the weeks. The advice she gave me was extremely useful (at least at this stage). Everything that she said seems so true. one thing that i have to realise about is that, no matter what i do, no matter what i think, it's not gonna bring me back to the history. Its over basically. I should take it as a break up, a loss and thats all. People lose something all the time. It could be in terms of friendship, relationship, girl friend, boy friend, a child may lose his toys, the adults may lose in gambling, a celebrity may lose her privacy, a pornstar may lose her dignity, a kid may lose his parents due to a car accident, a wife may lose his husband due to lung cancer.. anything! any kind of lost. and its so important to realise that people just keep moving on, accomplish what needs to be accomplished. and for me, its jkust a loss of friend, a very trusted one. whats the point of missing someone that doesnt even know your existance anyway? after all, I am only 21, 60 years of life need to go through. 2 years of friendship is only 2.5% of my entire life years.. Just let it go, and move on... to all out there, trust me, its not worth thinking about someone that prefers to lose you. p/s. to be honest, I am still working hard to totally not care about how they look at me, why on earth he prefers to lose me as friends, and why does it seem so easy for him to make that decision. after all, i swear i havent done anything wrong to him. even if i did, i WASNT ON PURPOSE and DIDNT MEAN IT AT ALL. p/s, to my friend: If it happens that you read my words, I just want to tell u that you are a nice person. its just that sometimes you may be a bit too sensitive. please dont be. make sure u understand the fact that if someone says something that may offend you one day, doesnt mean that they do it on purpose. conversation can happen in many different ways. I am pretty sure they didnt mean what u think it means. words just come off mouth spontaneously and they are unplanned sometimes. they are just jokes. I do hope that u would find some better friends to be with, study and have fun together. and i promise I wont talk to you if unecessary. Good luck in your studies :)